Every single year I make the same resolutions: be a better person, be more organized, yada, yada, yada. This year I really mean it! Every time I write a blog post (which is scarce), I’m always thinking “what is so-and-so going to think/say about this?” Heck, I bet like 2 people read what I write, so I just need to get over worrying about what others think. In this digital age, it is so must easier to document “life” by typing and uploading pictures instead of actually writing, printing pictures and inserting into a journal. So that is my first resolution—to not worry so much about what others think. I think this stems from not wanting to “brag,” (since I don’t like when others brag), but I’m writing the truth, not bragging (especially about the weight loss, because that was not easy).
To begin 2013, I am finally going to the doctor for my severe anxiety (never would have written that before) because it is getting in the way of life (second resolution). I put on a good front around other people, so it’s not always apparent, but just look at my nails—they are picked to shreds and usually bleeding because I nervously pick at them all day (not even realizing it). I also have a phobia that someone close to me is going to die, specifically, in a car accident. So needless to say, I don’t like to be in a car and I don’t like Addison to be in car driven by someone else. I have issues concentrating on one thing at a time and have to constantly be doing something (drives hubby nuts). I am hoping a medication will help me with my irrational thoughts and calm me down!!
However, on the other hand, the anxiety has somewhat helped me to lose the 10 pounds I gained over the past 2 years (I have OCD tendencies and when I have a serious goal in mind, I don’t stop until it is reached). Disclaimer: I was never “overweight” to begin with, however, I had clothes that were getting dusty from not being able to fit in them. I feel my best at a certain weight, and that was my goal. This is another area I don’t like talking about with people, but I want to be proud of my recent weight loss accomplishment! When Addi started Kindergarten in late August, I changed my work schedule so that I could put her on the bus. I didn’t have any more excuses to not work out. The routine of the school year was good for me too so that I could plan meals and exercise. I cut out sugar, refined carbs (white flour), processed food, fried food, most dairy and alcohol. Since the beginning of September I lost 15 pounds (5 more than what I set my goal at). I mainly wanted to focus on my abs, since they are the easiest (for me at least) to tone. I religiously use the My Fitness Pal (friend me! “sarahwessel”) app on my phone and log all of my food and exercise. I eat between 1300 and 1400 calories a day. I am not as rigid as I was through November, especially around the holidays. I also had one cheat day (Sat or Sun), where I ate anything I wanted (usually something sweet). As for exercise - Monday, Wednesday and Friday mornings from 5:30-6:30 am (yeah that says A.M.) I take a power pump/boot camp class that is cardio and weights (mainly weights). I only missed one class in October when I was in Michigan/had the flu. I attribute most of my success to these classes because they tightened everything up (I lost 3.5” from my hips, 2.5” from my waist and 1.5” from my thigh). On Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday (or Sunday) mornings I did our elliptical at home for 30-40 minutes. At this point, I am just maintaining. Eating mostly whole, unprocessed foods (along with a cheat day) and still doing the same workouts.
And now for proof. I can not believe I am posting these pictures, but I am going to anyway (I am using the Blogger app on my iPad and I can't get the pictures into the body of the post, so please see below)
This picture was taken on 7/4/12
This picture was taken on 8/22/12
This picture was taken on 10/11/12
This picture was taken on 11/5/12
This picture was taken on 11/15/12
Th last 2 pictures were taken today, 1/4/13
So to summarize what I’d like to accomplish in 2013:
1. Not care what other people think
2. Finally win the battle over my anxiety (and phobias and maybe grow some nails!)
3. Take more pictures (especially of Addi!)
4. Live without regrets (that is a whole ‘nother blog post)
5. ORGANIZE!
Just looking at the list I typed gives me anxiety (and fear that I won’t accomplish it)! Ah! Baby steps!
So here is to 2013! I year of actually living!